On the evening before the day of the opening reception for our 2024 emerging artist group exhibit, it is time– no I’m finding / making / taking / stealing time for a look back and forward and at the “right now” of the grantee experience.
[This is only an excerpt from my full article originally published online in the Creative Pinellas Arts Coast Magazine as part of the Emerging Artist Grant Artist Stories assignment. Read the full article here: Mixing More Media: Growing (Through) A Grant Installation]
RIGHT NOW:
1. Exhilarated, overjoyed, still slightly anxious about the upcoming exhibit – and extremely curious about the response to the artwork, which I hope to be a trigger of conversation, question, emotion, action.
2. Grateful. Grateful. Grateful. … for the experience of this grant cycle, the opportunity to exhibit, the support and work of Creative Pinellas staff […] for my mentor Victoria Jorgensen, whose support and own work inspired me and gave me the confidence to stretch further […] and for my partner Scott Solary, who helped directly with his wood-working expertise and indirectly by cooking so many late-night dinners (yes, pretty much all of them over the last 2 months).
3. … READ MORE
THE PAST: Growing (through) a mixed-media grant installation
[…] Also, I believe the artwork became a lot more meaningful – and more cohesive. It ties together so many elements of my creative and personal passions and goals. It helped me understand better the common thread in my work, which previously had felt a bit scattered.
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A few thoughts about all the media and art genres that are coming together in “Public Walls and In-Between Spaces”
1. Photography
I’ve incorporated 229 photos of urban outdoor aesthetics that I’ve taken between 2002 and 2024. It was a stimulating, gratifying, exciting, reminiscing – and sometimes triggering and sad exploration through space and time, bringing together my passion for street art, urban exploration, vintage signs, wildflowers, wildlife and birds – and photography, of course.
2. Woodwork construction
So many pleasures: working with and learning from my husband Scott as we chose and prepared wood, and his time-generosity when he built the three walls and 6 planter boxes.
3. Mixed-media wood + photography
Most of the photos I got into the wood through the “image-to-wood hand-transfer” process. […]
To try something new for the planters, I finally did some wheat-pasting aka paste-up.
4. Social art / social sculpture / artivism
I knew my work would aim for achieving a deeper message or higher purpose than just be pretty to look at, but at first I wasn’t 100% sure how far I would go when addressing outdoor aesthetics and all that and all whom that includes. It ended up becoming a very prominent, and possibly controversial aspect of the installation. At this point, I still don’t want to say more about it because I hope that visitors will discover it for themselves and consider their thoughts, feelings and actions. Ultimately, I hope it can at least change some awareness. It already has changed mine. Exploring the topic has taught me a lot already – one being: don’t wait for someone to give you permission to help. And one way to help is to bring awareness. I’ll write more about it in another post.
5. Biophilic art + Performance art
As part of the installation, I grew wildflowers in planters from seedlings and seeds already in my backyard. At least once a week, I plan on visiting them in the gallery to water, prune, touch, and breathe. But eventually, I will leave the country. Will someone else take care of them? Will someone pick them? Will someone smell them? How will they fair inside a gallery? Nurture and neglect…
6. Community participation (and the gift of extra time)
Many people, including myself, tend to work best under some time pressure because it eliminates time for second-guessing and kicks out perfectionism and lets the “muse” (aka subconscious / creative soul) step in and call the shots.
In the case of my installation, I worked until the last minute before my drop-off date (April 18) and then it was confirmed: I wouldn’t drop off that day, but bring everything on an install date 2 weeks later. This extra time with those wood panels standing around my studio and that beam I needed to include unexpectedly suddenly sparked an idea: writing on the inside of the walls (including that one sentence I was sure I had a photo of from but could never find). During the opening reception (and during the artist talk on June 1st), I hope you’ll add some thoughts, favorite quotes or drawings of your own.
7. Time and Unpredictability (and other themes)
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Not just in art, but in “real life: the personal growth of letting go
[…] Because of the unpredictable and imperfect process of wood-transfers, I learned to live with and even embrace imperfection. And I actually “let go” of the anxiety, self-doubt, second-guessing about the piece itself, the scope, and my intention… and the way people may judge me or it.
Due to the time pressure, and considering my father’s health crisis and the issues I’m addressing/questioning with my piece, there simply wasn’t any space left for the self-doubt I usually would have battled when trying something so different, big, and public. What would usually be a “stepping out of my comfort zone” turned into my comfort zone. It’s about accepting what you can’t control and also what you can control but not have done perfectly. It would be amazing if this kind of growth became something permanent, I could link to this Creative Pinellas Emerging Artist Grant experience. At least, I hope it will last through the exhibit run, because there are bound to be critical voices.
THE FUTURE:
First of all, I’ll be back at the gallery tomorrow to bring the last element of the installation (spoiler alert: the plants) and to put finishing touches on the inside of the installation, the part I’m still uncertain about. And then, finally: the opening reception on Thursday, May 9th. […]
The full article is part of the assignment to write a dozen “artist stories” during the 2024 Creative Pinellas Emerging Artist Grant cycle. Check out all of my Creative Pinellas Arts Coast Magazine articles.